Last night, I decided to move from the recliner to the bed.  This is extremely difficult for me because let’s face it, I am an 80% stomach sleeper, 15% side sleeper, and 5% back sleeper.  Having to sleep on my back 100% is extremely uncomfortable.  In the middle of the night, I literally sat on my knees and leaned forward and put my head on the pillow.  I was so tired and started to fall asleep while being in this position, but Ray kept bothering me and telling me I can’t go to sleep like this and finally, I rolled over and laid on my back.  I just hated this whole cancer ordeal.  I can’t get comfortable to fall asleep.

Yes, I could go on and on, but I am thankful for my life.  I always have been.  It is not like I needed to get cancer to realize how special life really has to offer because I have always stopped to smell the roses and appreciated everything.  One thing I have a tough time dealing with and honestly?  I suck at it which is faith.  Yep, I suck at faith, but Ray has ALWAYS passed with flying colors.  Here are some of my favorite quotes as of 15 years ago:

• The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched. They must be felt within the heart. – Helen Keller

  Your talent is God’s gift to you. What you do with it is your gift back to God.Character cannot be developed in ease and quiet. Only through experience of trial and suffering can the soul be strengthened, ambition inspired, and success achieved. – Helen Keller

  Challenges are what make life interesting; overcoming them is what makes life meaningful. – Joshua J. Marine

  Life’s a box of chocolates. You never know what you’re gonna get. (from the movie Forrest Gump).

• Everything happens for a reason! Nothing happens by chance or by means of good luck. Illness, injury, love, lost moments of true greatness and sheer stupidity all occur to test the limits of your soul. Without these small tests, life would be like a smoothly paved, straight, flat road to nowhere, safe and comfortable, but dull and utterly pointless.