I have been trying to figure out what size I truly want to be and quite honestly, I HAVE NO IDEA!   Here is my chance to pick the right size boobs or what people call foobs (fake boobs) and I cannot figure it out.  I have always been a size C.  I am small framed.  Then in the last few years, I EXPLODED (as my husband puts it) to a size D.  Being a big bust size just makes you look BIG, even though you are really not THAT big.  Being top heavy, makes you look heavy.  Also, whenever I look for swimsuits, the first thing I think of is trying to minimize my bust size or making sure I have good coverage to cover my boobs.  Lastly, I was tired of wearing button blouses and having the material between the buttons pop out where you can see your bra.  It is also uncomfortable and I felt self conscious when working out in front of people.

My outpatient surgery for the goods, also known as implants, will be February 18th.  I don’t want to find out, after surgery, that I am too small for the size I want to be or too big.  I had talked to my precious daughter who gave me an idea of getting myself measured by one of the staff at JC Penney’s.  After work, I stopped at JC Penney and spoke to Leah.  She was extremely helpful.  She measured me and told me I am currently a full size B and “IF” I was going to wear a bra, I will need a 36 C.  She said a 36 C is known as the perfect size. Yay!!!

Now I feel like I am in a dilemma.  I am going for my pre-op visit to the plastic surgeon January 30th, in 4 days.  At this visit, I can stay right where I am at in boob size and if so, then I will have to get another fill.  Why?  To make myself bigger and make room for the surgeon to take out expanders and put in implants.  The other choice is not get a fill and be the size I was with the last fill which I have decided, as of today, my expanders are too small.   Another thing that I am unsure of is, do you go down in size somewhat with the new implants? All of this is confusing for me.  This should not be that difficult!!!!  Argggg!!!   If I need to be even larger by having another fill, then surgery will be have to be postponed because after a fill, you have to wait around 3 weeks for the skin and muscle to heal before the implants go in.

I tried putting on a bra over these expanders and it is not easy because these foobs DON’T MOVE!  When you try to lay down on your side, the foobs do not touch each other.  This is not the same as implants that are behind breast tissue or your own set of real boobs.

Ray does not care what size I pick.  He has felt and held the implants in his own hands.  Ray wants me to feel comfortable in a swimsuit when I am going to do water aerobics in the near future.  He also kept reminding me how much I disliked my real boobs and how I wanted to get a breast reduction.  Even my daughter reminded me the same thing and how I had difficulty picking out shirts and blouses to wear.

It is going to be interesting what my Plastics will say to me this Friday and if surgery will still be set for February 18th, 2015.